July 9, 2009 03:23 PM Too many passwords? Too many sites?

I forgot my log in today to this page. I know that I don't write as much as I used to. But still, that is somewhat disheartening. Are there too many websites out there with my name on it? Do you know if you do a google search for "Brian Provow" there is only me that pops up? Out of the entire web, Brian Provow is just me. How odd. Maybe even a little sad and lonely. There is stuff that is lost sometimes to the web. I had a webpage back when AOL had homepages. But since they trashed those, everything is gone. I also use to have a little journal, the first winding road. It was run through this writing program who's name I know forget (Jess had one as well); but when they went the way of the dodo, so did months of reflections and thoughts. I pay for this, so this should be up for awhile. . . but there's the lj i don't use, the twitter, the facebook. So many ways to find me. It's funny and odd. What if I was to forget one of those passwords and then never be able to get in again? It would be an archive to my life when i am no longer here (if the forever nature of the web is to be believed).

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July 8, 2009 09:44 PM Patience.

I know you want to take things slow. I know how things are between us now. I know I said I am good and I'll wait. But with each day, after we hang out, there sets in this feeling of dread. I don't know if I can deal. I don't know if i have patience. I don't know if I can wait and think I might lose you. I think I'm ready to say "this is it", unless you can change your mind to now. And I know this'll cost me you.

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July 7, 2009 10:03 AM MAY and JUNE by IPOD

I accidentally deleted all my playlist numbers during May. WHAT?! So I had to do the two months combined. Ah well ;)

40. Keri Hilson, Kanye West, & Ne-Yo’s “Knock You Down” (LM 9; Down 31)
39. Michael Jackson’s “Will You Be There” (LM --)
38. Metro Station’s “Kelsey” (LM --)
37. The Clipse’s “Kinda Like a Big Deal” featuring Kayne West (LM --)
36. Black Eyed Peas “I Got a Feeling” (LM --)
35. Asher Roth’s “I Love College” (LM --)
34. Black Eyed Peas’ “Alive” (LM --)
33. Matt & Kim’s “Daylight” (LM --)
32. Cupid’s “Cupid Shuffle” (LM --)
31. Chrisette Michele’s “Epiphany” (LM --)


30. Ace Hood, Akon & T-Pain’s “Overtime” (LM --)
29. Mandy Moore’s “I Could Break Your Heart Any Day of the Week” (LM--)
28. Jeremih’s “Birthday Sex” (LM --)
27. Fabolous’ “Throw it in the Bag” featuring The-Dream (LM --)
26. Phoenix’s “Countdown” (LM --)
25. Lil’ Kim’s “Download” featuring Charlie Wilson & T-Pain (LM --)
24. David Guetta’s “When Love Takes Over” featuring Kelly Rowland (LM --)
23. Dave Matthews Band’s “Funny the Way it Is” (LM --)
22. Corey Hart’s “Sunglasses at Night” (LM --)
21. Kayne West’s “Paranoid” featuring Mr. Wilson (LM --)

20. Go West’s “The King of Wishful Thinking” (LM --)
19. Glee Casts’ “Don’t Stop Belieiving” (LM --)
18. Basement Jaxx’s “Romeo” (LM --)
17. Trey Songz’ “In Your Phone” (LM --)
16. Pitbull’s “I Know You Want Me” (LM --)
15. Mario’s “Breakup” Featuring Gucci Mane (LM--)
14. Kanye West’s “Amazing” featuring Young Jeezy (LM --)
13. Beyonce’s “Disappear” (LM--)
12. Bif Naked’s “Spaceman” (LM --)
11. Ben Harper and Relentless7’s “El Dorado” (LM --)

10. Queen Latifah’s “Cue the Rain” (LM--)
9. Peaches’ “Talk to Me” (LM--)
8. The Frames’ “Falling Slowly” (LM --)
7. Spongebob’s “The Best Day Ever” (LM --)
6. Lil Wayne & Babyfaces’ “Comfortable” (LM --)
5. Jordin Sparks’ “Battlefield” (LM --)
4. Guru Josh Project’s “Infinity (Klaas Vocal Mix)” (LM --)
3. Gorilla Zoe’s “Echo” (LM --)
2. Arcade Fire’s “Keep the Car Running” (LM --)
1. Keith Urban’s “Kiss a Girl” (LM --)


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