November 20, 2009 06:08 PM I wonder if they allow breaks for depression.

To be honest. If gay marriage doesn't get passed in New Jersey, I might ... become depressed for a week.

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November 18, 2009 03:36 PM Dreams.

My antagonistic relationship with my mother has a habit of somehow coming through in my dreams at times. Like last night, she was running a store that I was a customer in. And she started picking on me for dressing sloppy. But I was upset because a former student of mine was working for her and I found this to be embarassing.

I also had a dream where I was in a musical version of superhero film. Everyone was turning their back on the hero, specifically the love interest; the Hero is leaving town and reveals his secret identity to her as he does. She realizes then what a fool she has been, but alas it was too late.

You only wish you could have dreams like these.

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November 17, 2009 11:14 PM Beyonce and Gaga. Brilliance.



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November 16, 2009 09:00 PM Because he knows he should...

Update.

For six years I have harbored feelings for one of my friends. That's a long time. We were babies when we met, honestly. And so much has changed and our lives are so much different and growth and life and yadda yadda. But when I see him I still get this feeling inside me that's like "Dude, I will always be into you, you little fuck." Do you have that? Is there someone who just does it for you and no matter what, it's still there? And I know nothing will come of it. After six years, its just comforting that we are friends and talk and what not. I mean, it's a relationship that bridges a huge amount of distance. But in the end, I am always going to be into his little hobbit ass and this isn't a bad thing. I love seeing him. I just... felt like I should accept it and put it in writing. What exists will always be there. I would do anything for him. I don't even think we would work as a couple... I don't know. And he'll never read this. But i wanted to put it out there for someone to see. I guess this is one of those weird little loves, huh?

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